I was reminded that karen have asked me this question before... why don't you get EMO...? and i also remember replying that.. whats there to EMO about..? and seriously thinking and saying... theres really nothing to EMO about... its either this or that... you can't blame anything or anyone about the way it happens... its also no point complaining or blaming others or yourself for doing this or that and it causes this and that and whatabs.... i mean seriously.. cant u just do any other things instead of sitting down there and complaining about what others say this and yet you done that and etc.... look i've read a couple of blogs and i'm not shooting you with allt his phrases but it really just reminded me and bang into my head....

currently i really very super duper hungry... i've not eaten since morning... mummy said wanna bring me go eat dinner so i shall savour it till dinner tyme huh.. and yea... but look lets get back... even if u dont complain or blaming anything while EMO-ing... u shouldnt also put on a black face.. sad face... and making others worry.. and i called this selfish... which i understand that you are going thru a bad day.. a really very pissed off day and of course u sure will have a negative behaviour or attitude and showing your faces and what nots.. but seriously thinking... if you do all this.. what can others do for you..? the most we only can comfort you and talk to you... and make you smile but at the end of the day.. the problem is still there... you got to face the music.. and you just cant run away from it... yes i know.... i not lyke others who always have family problems and what nots.... but trust me.. i have enough of experience to speak about this...

you can say me crap and whatabs but i'm not really going to care and bother about it.... and god mum told me this that in de past.... people dont know when is HARY RAYA..? cos they dosent have any fixed day for it.. so how they know..? its lyke this.. they will have their normal life.. working studying and etc.. and when they hear a bell rang lyke those super big bell that goes *BOOM* *BOOM* *BOOM* and that means its HARY RAYA.... and they will immediately stop workign and go back home... well thats history.. now its de future for some... but for most of us is present... lyke what i said before.. you cant change the past(history) but you can change the future(mystery).......

now adays i just cant find good blog skins so no other choice but to go with default blogskins... and yea black is nice... but it looks EMOish and whatabs... i'm just feeling hurt at tymes especially that... daddy have gave me $400 for me buying a guitar.. but i didnt know he gave so early and left it on de table and mummy thought that the money was daddy gave it to her to see doctor... and she spent it.... when i come back i just realise it... and i felt totally shag.... i was so excited and happy about getting de guitar but when i come home.. BANG... there it goes my guitar.... and mummy promised that @ de end of the month she will give me the money to buy de guitar but its really not a promissing.. she have been saying that wanna buy me a guitar since a couple of months ago and she ddint keep her promised.... i endure it till its my birthday and was picking up alot of courage to speak to my daddy to ask hom for money to buy a guitar.. getting money form him was seriously a very difficult thing to do.. i will sure get scolding but i was so happy that he didnt when i ask him for money to buy guitar....

and now everything is gone... told mummy that dont ever promised me anything when you'er not sure if u can do it anot... same goes to everyone out there.. dont promised me anything if you'er not sure if you can do it.... i believe that everyone out there hates liars hates backstabbers and etc... for me.. what i cant stand the most is those people who cant keep their promises... i know mummy seeing doctor was much more important... but i just dont know why i cant get over with it... i mean mummy do have left over money from the $400 but i just reject it away and ask her better go see doctor but when i step out of the house.. i just feeling sad and dissapointed the entire whole day....

its really feels heavy in me... for me now.. i just really hope that mummy really got the sufficient money to buy me a guiat.... if not.. i really got to wait till my N levels are over and get a job and work hard for it and purchase a guitar... cos i dont wanna to have another blow of unkept promises and making me dissapointed the entire day...... and one more thing.. dont say me EMO cos i'm not belong to that category alright